Faith Over Fear

 The past four weeks in my Journaling Small Group, we've been going through a series called Faith over Fear. Faith has been an essential part of our journey and I do not think we could go on without it. Fear has crept in many times too. However, God brings us back with a stronger faith and ready for what He has next. 

This weeks lesson, that we will be doing tomorrow, is about a fear of not hearing God. He stills speaks to us today through scripture, the Holy Spirit, others, and our circumstances. In the lesson it asked this question, " When is a time that you have clearly heard from God?" I had a few instances comes to mind, but the first one was when I heard him tell me to share our story. I go back and think about when this all happened (during Covid). I knew that writing wasn't necessarily my strong suit. I could have used that as an excuse. I knew that there would be weeks where probably no one would read my post. I could have used that as an excuse.  I am so thankful that I listened and started this blogging journey along side our fertility journey. I can't imagine where we would be without the support we've gained and the connections that I have made with some pretty incredible women facing something hard in their lives. 

Don't only take time to pray and talk to God, but take the time to listen. Take the time to ask Him to show you what he has for you. Do we always get the answer we want? No. Do we always get an answer in the way we thought we would? No. But our faith comes into play because we believe ALL things are possible with God. 

Another time that I can remember God clearly speaking to me is when we went to Haiti. And I had the opportunity to go twice. God used the first trip to prepare me for the second where we go to do one of my favorite things: VBS! 

There are times in this journey that we are in now that I wonder if I heard God wrong? Or if I listened to myself and not Him? Or we just jumped in because that's what the doctor's recommended? I will say these past couple months I have been inconsistent with my quiet times and prayers. That is a personal thing that I am trying to get through right now, and I hope that I can get it together. 

John 10:27 My sheep listen to my voice, I know them and they follow me. 

Psalm 34:4 I sought the Lord, and He answered me. He delivered me from all my fears. 

Let your faith be bigger than your fear! God's got this! You got this! 

Three

Well I've really had a hard time knowing what to write again, which is why I haven't. 

We ended up with three embryos. Now, the first couple people that I told my words were "we only got 3." And it only took one person for me to realize that "only 3" was the wrong mentality. I was so disappointed when I got the call and immediately took our news as a negative. 

Not long after a few conversations, next was "We got three embryos!" We could have easily gotten two, one, or none. I think one reason I was so upset was not necessarily because we got only three, but we also lost 16. Now we were prepared for some not to make it, but our hearts were just broken.  

I am so thankful to the ones who helped me see the positive of the situation. Now we wait until our Frozen transfer cycle. Will we transfer one or two? We don't know yet, but we are looking forward to starting the process. So we wait for now! 

Dear God, We are so thankful for the three embryos. Thank you for the friends and family that helped us realize the good that was done! I pray that we continue to follow where we believe you are leading us. Amen